GUYS! IVE CHANGED MY BLOG TO http://resaleejs.livejournal.com/ 

HAHAHHAH cos i wanted to change my URL haha.
wheeeeeeeee. NO MORE chapsticks from now on! ;)

heh.
bui!!!!!!! im gonna miss this blog! :S

ZAI ZIAN!

HAROW HAROW.
Today, was a ........... usual day. nothing special.  Im ALMOST done with me poster. ANDDDD :S i finished my 1000word essay within one hour! HAHAHAHH opps bochappppp. hehehe. 
Today,

i cooked 9 dumplings for myself in the morning and started eating it. I was multitasking hehe ..... eating it and surfing the net. I was happily deeping the dumplings in the sauce and savouring them one by one. Weirdly, after my 7th dumpling, i randomly glanced at my 8th one and realised its UNCOOKED. so i ate 7 UNCOOKED dumplings and i didnt even know. YEEEEEEWWWW :SSS it was hot la! and chewy so i thought eh so cool quite nice.      BLEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

eldon's retarded little key chainnnn! hahahah he drew the happy face. -_-

and i thought joyce is doing PHD

hahah no la. lexy and elds took over during her toilet break! HAHAHAH wtheckkkkkkkkkkkk. nonnsense.
i bet you for a moment you guys thought im some ULTRA SCIENCY-SCIENCY-SMARTY student ;)...whaaaa.....
I WISH AH. -_- hehe

a cookie a day keeps a doctor away! ;) even more ,the better. ;)

My mouse pad and Tvsnack were the only things that made me happy today! :D
 
SIGH..... sad sad stories. nonono. My prince is coming soon! ;) six more dayz.



 
i was bored during break! hehehehhe

so tired!

k tmr:
1.add comments on my poster
2.post my essay and poster on LMS
3.chill, relax and slack for the day! :D whoooooooooooooo

night!

I took my first pill in the morning. hmmm, hope its going down.  Ytd, rachel was sweet enough to help me apply Elocon liquid given by doctor matt and i felt this burning senstion around my entire scalp. Urgh, during that moment, it felt so good, like it's gonna kill everything even my itch. Less than 5 mins after applying, the itch came back again. Even now, as im typing this, my head is itching so badly, it's so hard to resist scratching it. It's itchy beyond itchy.....:(
 

medicine medicine pls fix me quickly D:

 
thought of showing you guys some that can be seen.  im sure you can see it.....

The rest is found on my whole scalp.  yes..... very sad.

When i talk to people, i know that they are secretly looking at it but they just keep quiet. Every now and then they'll be distracted by my wound and they'll try not to offend me by making it obvious. but i know it. I know they are looking at it.

I'll be strong. 
I gotta keep reminding myself, don't let those negative thoughts run through my mind, thats just the devil trying to convince me that i'm getting uglier, getting worse and that ppl are staring at it.
I CAN I CAN I CAN I CAN handle this.

k today, im gonna:
1. finish placing all my furnitures in my structure.
2.take my money shot and render it
3. fill my design process in my poster
JIA YOU JIA SHU!

Baby, can't wait to be there at the airport waiting for you.
8 more days.
faster come back.
 

i went to the docs today and i found out that i have Eczema infection all over my scalp. I asked him what the cause of it was and he said that it's a break out. I hardly scratch or peel pr wtv but it just started to grow around my entire scalp. In the first place, i didnt even have Eczema on my head. I have no freakin idea how it happened. Some extended out outlining my top right hand side of my forehead, and some covering my entire left ear almost reaching towards my left cheek. Im feeling totally uncomfortable and my head feels as if hundreds of ants are continuously nibbling on my head. the thought of it makes me sick. sigh but i got my meds already and i have to ake a pill every 4 times a day. :S sounds serious right.I think i dye my hair too many times or i blow dry my hair too much. urghhh.
 

AND NO THATS NOT ME IN THE PIC !  hhahaha mines found ONLY on my head. which isssss WORSE. :S:S:S rarr.

In the name of Jesus, please heal my head.
plss God. :(
 

 
Im feeling quite down nowadays. Maybe because lyy is gone? must be it.
Ly wrote me a letter before she left! After reading it, i felt very happy. It gave me so much assurance. You are my true friend too k! LY! i love you alot. I know we went through sooooo many quarrels and problems but all of it made a huge difference to our r/p.
Sorry for all the hurt ive caused you. I love you lyly :). Hope i can go back so we can do all the fun things tgt. Im more bored without you here! SO HURRY COME BACK k! heh. loviee <3.

I want a study buddy cos everyone wants to be at home and do their work.sigh. LYLY ! ni zai na li! :S

:(

these words

see first k
all my things at home
i got work due tmr
dont think i can
oh noo too late
for awhile?
i got school
another time?
soonsoon
omg i got so much work

it's okay
i'll be fine
yep sure another time
after school?
nvm la haha
alright soon
no la im really okay

emptiness

hurt

tears

sadness

hope?

loneliness

isolation

Not so good. Maybe im growing? idk.

a lil something
 

Nan and i just showered and we're going to online shop now! addictive! heh.
I'm not going to school tmr cos i don't feel like! no mood... so sian.

random note: IM SUPER HAPPY FOR JANA LOH! ;)

haha you deserve this Jana. :)
Anyway, ive been pigging out as usual anddddddd nan was thinking whether we should go on a healthy diet. Not really dieting but just eating healthy.... HMMMMM i always say OKAY! and then......... FAIL. hehehe.

random note: i wanna buy eyeshadow stuff!!!!

I was looking through fashion blogs and wondering to myself.IF i ever start a fashion blog, i'll be the FATEST fashion blogger ever hahahahaha. Cos all the blogs ive seen right, all of the fashion gurus are dead skinny!!!!!!!!! sighsighsigh i sure CMI one hahahaa.
BUT NOW
no $$ = no shopping = old clothes = not that fashionable = sigh = SIAN = :(
ALSO NOW
plump = not skinny = attached = lazy to impress other ppl = eating alot

HAHAHHAHA yeappppp.
TO ME,
bf = feel more accepted = lazy to impress other people = eat more meals with bf = watch movies with bf =no $$$ = no shopping = happy= eating unhealthily = putting on weight = uglyier = self conscious = comfort from bf = feel better

AND THE WHOLE CYCLE STARTS AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN. hehe.
unless you're like damn rich you can like shop AND eat AND very pretty AND buy like organic food products and still be slim= LOoKin GoOooOd.
hahahaha IF ONLY. sighsigh.

I finished my presentation today. Now, ive to mug super hard for my test on monday cos ive not been going to the lectures and ve not started. I must finish reading my vics roads book cos tmr wynn,lex and i gonna take the driving test already!whooo cant wait to drive! :D
:S
Im eating like cereal that consists of corn flakes, koko krunch and oat clusters. niceeeeeee.
I realise something about my life.
It's getting more quiet? well, the only non quiet part of my life is when i meet my urbiez.
no cam, no bf( as in present here), no money to shop cos i BURST my phone bills again.
ACtually there's been something that has been lingering in my mind for quite sometime but im uncertain about it.
That is, should i go on diet?

I know it sounds like an easy decision. But, should i? cos when i see food and i get tempted and ill eat it happily without any guilty feelings.
I feel so lazy. Sometimes i see those skinny hot hot hot girls, tall and sexy and i  get so envious. I sometimes think of being like that but i just have no motivation. sigh. Or when my stomach's rumbling, ill look at cereal or mashpotato/meat...i just wanna eat the more greedy choice.
Sometimes i feel that i have this inner battle in my mind about how i wanna be slim and sexy but then god tells me to love myself and that he made me the way i am. im caught in the middle.

I miss eddy alot. I know ive been saying this in every post but i mean it. I just can't stop thinking about him. Thoughts running through my mind on whether i'll see him soon. Cos everyday, it'; been like this consistant routine ..it goes like this
1.get up for uni
2.Think about him
3.walk home
4.think about him
5.have lunch
6.think about him
7.work/sleep
8.think about him
9.dinner
10.think about him
11.chill
12.think about him
13.work/sleep/still chill
14.think about him
15.think about him again
16.sleep


Ive found my grace. :)

Tables are turnin
My heart is soarin
You'll never let me down
Answer my call
Here after all
Never met anyone
Like you

Baby you're so unusual
Didnt any one tell you you're supposed to
Break my heart, i expect you to
So why haven't you?
Maybe you're not even human cause
Only an angel could be so unusual
Sweet surprise i could get used to
Unusual you

(Britney-unusual you)

Missing you like crazy.